Christmas.....Peyton's b-day party planning

The temperature is dropping and i've heard talk of snow flurries.... too bad it hasn't been cold enough, long enough for them to stick and create a winter wonderland outside!  I am really hoping for some snow this year so i can see both of my babies out there enjoying it and hopefully developing a love for winter and winter weather like their parents!  Two weeks from today we will be making sure everyone and everything is ready for the busy christmas eve we are having....that we have every year!! and yup you guessed it i'm still working on christmas presents!! the biggest one to finish is the one for my SIL and her new hubby and i got the idea from pinterest but it was one of those wonderful posts where they don't have a link on "how-to" so i'm having to do it all by my self but i'm lucky enough to have the crafting spirit.... and some great friends who have some btdt advice and are willing to help me out and give me some pep to finish!!

After checking the lists Ms. Peyton is a few gifts shy of what bubba has so i'll be on the lookout for some super cheap gifts to finish her list, and to fill stockings!  and i have yet to take them to dollar tree so they can get the gifts for each other, luckily they are good with dollar tree and the dollar section of target to buy for one another, but i know those days will come to an end... and sooner than i had hoped!  Peyton wanted to buy a scooter for her brother... like hers but its Mickey Mouse.... not in her budget lol.

I need to start wrapping presents we have none done yet but its hard when Peyton keeps fighting sleep and is up until 10:30ish every night!!

Peyton's birthday is going to be Hello Kitty themed (her choice) and yes i know its in March but i'm trying to do as much of it myself as possible so i am trying to start early.  Hubby got me a Cricut for our anniversary and i was thinking about getting the Hello Kitty Greeting cartridge but its retired, so the cheapest i can find is 139, and its been linked so i can't set up/lay it out in my Cricut Craft Room...... so i'm on the search for one cheap or a friend who has one who will let me use their cart for the party stuff!!  The good thing about planning early is Target has a TON of Hello Kitty stuff in their dollar section which will make the goodie bags/pinata super easy to fill and maybe even some decorations for the party!!

Maybe i can wrap a few tonight.....
g'night all!

Christmas is coming!!

I love this time of year, my crafty side comes out and I start adding a million tasks to my "to-do" list.  I did the insane black friday shopping this year and made out with some amazing deals and pretty much finished my list of gifts to purchase and now its onto the things I am making... I feel like I always put these off for last and i shouldn't do that because then i feel like they never really get done and I get antsy kinda like i am tonight... i have one project that is huge that i'm not even sure i am actually going to do, mainly bc it might not be cost effective or even be noticed on Christmas morning, it will definitely pale in comparison to the pink car Santa is bringing!  and then come the ever so difficult to shop for in-laws... they aren't family i have known my entire life so its hard to figure out what to do/make for them and the hubby is no help!! so as usual i'm stuck deciding and throwing ideas out to him and the problem is he isn't really decisive and he seems to always have the same lack of enthusiasm answer no matter what i say or offer as a suggestion!!  I made these "redneck wine glasses" bc i thought they would be interested, and so far they have been a big hit!! i'm super excited to make the rest and decorate them bc these will go along with gifts for the inlaws and they will be part of our white elephants for various parties this holiday season!  I decided sunday night that i needed to do inventory of our christmas gifts, so i know what my kids have and what exactly i need to wrap for them so i'm not sitting there last minute irritated bc we forgot something for one or the other and i'm glad i did.... Ms. Peyton has quite a few less than her brother and i know that she probably won't notice who am i kidding, this is the kid who counts out fruit snacks and skittles to make sure its EVEN.... ugh i'm going to have to find/make her some more things... which reminds me, i went and got my sewing machine today... now i haven't used one in years and i'm not even sure i know how to thread the darn thing but i will learn, and i will bust my butt and make some wonderful somethings with it but for now, its in the box on my kitchen counter, lucky for me one of my best friends knows how to sew very well and is more than willing to teach me and work with me on it... so here we sit, a little less than 3 weeks to christmas.... its crunch time.... good thing i'm doing well at being crunchy...

My mom had surgery on her knee friday and she's doing rather well, she's up and moving around and doing PT and best of all.........(mental drum roll)....... SHE WON'T GO BACK TO WORK UNTIL AFTER THE NEW YEAR!!!!!!! i have missed my mommy and i'm so excited to get to spend some of this time with her while we have the opportunity!!

My children recieved the coolest thing from santa this year... and Elf on a Shelf... they named him Pickles and he's been hiding up where they can't touch him.... i guess he knows they are very young and very curious and might accidentally take his magic away!! the kids get up every morning and are so excited to go find him, peyton tells him everyday she wants a pink care and a trampolee (trampoline) granted she's only getting the car but WTH its good for them to dream big!!  its getting late and i need to try to go to bed, even though the insomnia is back and running rampant in my life right now, i know it will all even out one day, even if that means i have to go see Dr. V and get back on something to help me sleep!!

December 2nd..... and my ac is on??

I know you probably read the title and had one of tow reactions.... she's crazy right?? or DUH you live in Texas !! well either way after experiencing fall this year (yea i know its strange, we have two temperatures, hot and bearable!) I was sure that we would have a nice, FREEZING winter, and low and behold it is now the 5th, and while i might be wearing a sweat shirt that in no way means that it is cold.... i'm just a whimp and get chills easy.  i'm at a loss, don't get me wrong, i've had my heat on once or twice but thats because I have two small children who, for whatever reason, strip at night/in their sleep!

We had to take Preston to the dr on friday, he'd gotten some virus and they said it had to run its course and he would get better, like that ever happens with my kiddos... The sores in his mouth went away but he messed with the one on his face to the point where he got impetigo... what fun that is. So Friday we took him back  to see his doctor and they wrote us a script for oral antibiotics, and an antibiotic cream.  He's a champ, he refuses the medicine at first then takes it all on his own despite its disgusting taste (Cephalexan) and he allows me to put the cream on it, he's use to cream for his bum so he always tells me it will make him better.  i just feel like i'm fighting a losing battle, he keeps scratching and its not going away as fast as i would like it to.  Oh the joys of parenthood!!!

How are the rest of you out there in the parenthood world??

No more kids??!!

So I'm sitting here confused and feeling a little depressed, I feel like no one is in my corner or approving of us having more kids... The hubby finally got on board and even worked on a "timeline" for when but it seems everyone is against us having more, except my family! A family member keeps saying how the middle child ends up messed up or lacking or missing something, and that is a very hard pill to swallow bc my Ashley was the middle child and we all know how that ended, and now a very close friend of ours has "put their foot down" my entire life I have wanted 3 or more kids, and when I lost my Ashley I felt that even more so. I love the two babies I have but I feel like something is missing... I dreamed of the white picket fence, 2.5 children and the dog. And the dog, nor the fence are what is missing.... I want more children, but I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place, partially bc I know we are not in the position to have a child right now and bc I feel the world is against us... I feel like maybe people believe I'm not a good enough mother to the two I have, which devastates me bc I battle the constant feeling that I'm not good enough or deserving enough to have the two wonders I do... I'm stressed and upset, with my emotions in a fragile state and last night didn't make it any better. I dunno what to do or what to think...

Thankful

As we approach thanksgiving we begin being thankful, and speaking our words of thankfulness, as I've seen many people do on Facebook and I keep asking myself why it takes Thanksgiving for people to start voicing what they are thankful for, and why people tend to only show appreciation for the things in their life during this time. I was raised to use manners, yes ma'am,no ma'am, yessir and no sir, to always say please and thank you, and to always remind those around me how much I appreciate what they do for me big or small. What do we teach our children if we do not do this all 12 months? Are we teaching our children that it is ok to forgo being appreciative and humble the other 11 months?? Every day of every month of every year we as the human people should strive to thank and show appreciation to those around us, we should strive to eliminate our negativity, hatred and disdain for others. My children are being raised to say thank you, we are always trying to donate what/when/where we can....even if its only our time, we do not have much money but my children take pride in what they do for others. We are on the eve so to speak of adopting our angel, we do this every year, it shows my children the gift of giving, the "fullness" you feel from helping someone in need. They each get a little budget and are allowed to purchase something for the child in need. I am amazed when, after reading what the child needs, my daughter will be so excited to go buy for our family angel. She is the first to be taken back by the fact that the child wants/needs socks and underwear and she always try's to give her toys away bc the angel doesn't have many.... We work so hard to teach our children, the future leaders of the country, these life forms we've been blessed with from God how to live unconditionally and give as much as they can that it breaks my heart to see people reserve their appreciation and thankfulness of others for once a year. I have been blessed in my life to have two loving parents, who are not perfect, they have faults and learn from their mistakes, they have taught me that a mistake isn't the end if the world, as long as you learn from it and strive to do better you are working towards whatever goal you have... Setbacks do not destroy your goal, sometimes you have to find a new road to continue in your journey. I am blessed with 4 amazing siblings, who also have faults, and make mistakes. And one who is no longer on the earth with me physically but who is always in my heart and a part of my life. I have my relationship with God, and I know he forgives my faults and errors and loves me unconditionally as he wants us to do with others. I have the love of a wonderful man, he sees thru my faults, my pain and my struggles and knows what's inside of my heart, he helps me be the best person I can be, he pushes me to be the best I can and helps me when I feel I'm either not doing enough or I feel I've fallen short. I have been blessed with two wonderful children, who I am trying to raise to the best of my ability and who are also helping me grow, I'm learning how to be a mother and how to deal with the things life throws at us. And I have been blessed with some very important, true, real, friends. These friends have seen me at my lowest, seen me be destructive of my own life and have continued to stay by my side, we have all had a windy road full of ups and downs but in the end on speaking terms or not I know that I can count on them.... And so today, as well as every day of every month, of every year I'm grateful, appreciative and humble for all of the blessings and gifts in my life. I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday.

Feeling a little lifted.

So today I'm enjoying the company of 4 pretty cool kids!! My bestie gave a lady at work my info bc her kiddos needed care mon-wed and we worked out payment and figured it all out!! I forgot how much I enjoy older children!! I might try to take on some kids this summer that are school aged. We enjoyed a wonderful thanksgiving with my family yesterday and I'm reminded of how much I truly enjoy spending time with my aunt and my cousins!! I love my family but I really enjoy spending time with my extended family, not to hurt anyone's feelings and I think they know this, but I've always felt like I fit better with them than I do with mine....

I'm working hard on Christmas presents and my crayons came out so good!! I'll post pictures later from my computer bc it's hard to do from my phone!

Update, what's new here!

It's been a while so here we go:
Yay Pres did NOT have west Nile! We are still unsure what was going on with his little body but he recovered within a few days and was his normal irritable 2 year old self by his second birthday! Pres' second birthday was a hit!! (Can't find the pictures... Will update later!!) I found a lot of ideas and had a successful semi-DIY party!! A topiary I turned into Mickey Mouse I found on Pinterest, and a piñata, when I post pictures I'll also tag the blog with the instructions!!
My nephews party was a few weeks after Pres' party, and it too was a success!!! I love that my boy has a friend his same age/gender that we get to see all the time!!
Everything has been the same in our home, I'm still home everyday with my kids and loving it, though I'm looking for part time work to help with my crafting/DIY projects!!!
The Hubbs and I celebrated our 4th anniversary and I cannot believe we have already been married 4 years it blows my mind!! He cracked his wedding ring a few months back so I stole his ring and replaced it with the same one, he wears the broken one to work and the nice one out when we go out....... And my husband got me the Cricut machine I have wanted since before we got married!!! Here is the only project I've done...(I'm not sure where it's gonna show up I haven't done this from my phone with a picture!) anywho everyone loves there door but I need a new mat, we bought the machine used but in excellent condition!! I'm looking forward to making more as time goes on!!
Halloween: my monkeys looked awesome as the beautiful Snow White, and my lil Spider-Man! They had so much fun and got lots of candy though mist was chocolate and Pres couldn't have it. We made it work and the rest is hidden and they have no clue they are missing ANYTHING!!
My poor lil monkey man Pres got sick again... I virus, they don't know what or where or anything!! He popped up with canker-like sores in his mouth on his tongue and a fever blister-like one just below his lip. They lasted a week and he is doing much better now, thankfully! Speaking if being thankful, we are just over a week to thanksgiving and I could not be more excited! I love being with family, gathered together enjoying time! As usual our schedule is crazy- Sunday before thanksgiving we celebrate with my entire family then thanksgiving day it's with my in-laws and my parents if we can squeeze it all in! Then comes Black Friday, but not much money here, so I will be only buying the pjs and some DVDs we were wanting. Hubbs wants a blu-ray player but I'm not sure I really wanna do that, we shall see!!

As for other news, I have baby fever!!! We know its not the right time financially speaking but it doesn't make my biological clock tick any quieter!! I'm enjoying the time I have with my two blessings and cherishing it knowing there are parents who would give anything to be home with their children!

Working on some projects... Check back later for a list and how they are working out!

Ugh maybe West Nile!?!?

So little mean has done great with the milk transition, knows he can't have sisters milk or cheese and will tell you if he drank it(gotta love kids who are that big on rules!!) so I've been not so worried about him lately.  He is definitely starting the temperament/mood change to being a two year old but yesterday he wasn't himself.... He was clingy, very irritable and then got a fever out of nowhere.... No biggie he wasn't that hot, Motrin and fluids and bed... He wakes up around 10:15 and is flushed and burning up!!!! Hasn't been long enough yet for Motrin and now Tylenol in the house, so ice packs and the rectal thermometer, which he HATES of course..... 104.5 HOLY HELL highest fever he's ever had!! I call the nurse hotline for our insurance, after asking questions, and with confirmed cases in the area she suggests I take him to the ER and have him checked for West Nile.  Oh joy.  The ER nurse was not to my standards but oh well he's getting seen.  Chest X-ray, urine culture and blood draw later we have no clue, could be viral that's not showing in his blood panel or West Nile but that test takes 2-3 days to get back.  At discharge over two hours after his next Motrin dose we are down to 99.3. Today he was warm and not himself in the morning, more Motrin and LOTS of cuddles/TLC, but for some reason he woke up acting just like himself after nap. Thank goodness, still have to watch him and we wait for the test results but OMG that scared this momma do after being up for more than 36 hours it's bed time..... Gotta get up early the little girl I'm watching is dropped off at 6:30 am. Update once I have more info!!

Update-Milk/dairy intollerance to do list, and upcoming

Having a day, sitting here playing, and watching my children build forts I miss my Ashley.  I know everyone says she wants me to be happy, remember the good... thats all fine and dandy but what you don't realize is even with the good comes tears and a yearning to have her here with me, sitting by my side as my children grow up, wanting to have had the ability to watch her grow into a wonderful woman, and have children and just live life the way she did.... In just over a week I will have a two year old (OMG where has time gone!!!) and a week after that I will have a 3 1/2 year old... I cannot believe that time is moving so fast, i wish i could slow it down and get more out of each moment, but i'm taking it in, relishing in the fact that these are beings I created, and that I am nurturing (along with their father) I am so proud of the little people they are becoming...

I have projects on my to do list... ugh it seems to grow each passing day.  I know its only the first of September but that also means that its only just under 4 months to christmas.... Time to start creating the lists... what the kids what, what i think they need, what we can make for christmas decor/homemade gifts this year.  and time to begin that oh so wonderful christmas budget... you know where you take all of the extra money and hide it away to pay for the things you want to do... so here is the to do list so far:

Do/Finish Preston's lego table... maybe from Santa... i dunno since Peyton knew about the project, maybe we can tell her we sold the table (she's been enjoying the garage sales lately!!!)

Do Peyton's dress-up wardrobe, find a template, make it look as much like Belle's from Beauty and the Beast, paint it, install the dowel... yea thats going to be a good one.

Finish the amazon "wish lists" for the kids christmas bc that is the easiest way to come up with their wants and my "needs" for them so come november when lists are asked for i'm prepared to answer!!

Oh yea, we are changing the kids rooms, moving them into the "office" its gonna need some paint, the border removed, new curtains, and the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse decor i've found.... not to mention a big boy mattress for my little man!!

Our dryer was broken for about a month, and trying to catch up on laundry is awful.... I did necessity laundry only while it was broken, bc the laundromat is expensive and drying on the line is hard when there are more clothes than line, and the sun doesn't get to all of it no matter where I put the line!!

Beginning in-home child care again... looking into becoming licensed so that I can have a "reputable" child care, but starting slow, nannying for one family at a time!!

And talk about #3, it has been tabled for now, but its right there on the back burner... my thought is april or may bringing it back to the front burner and having a serious discussion about it, pro's and con's financial aspect and just making sure that this is the best thing and the best time for right now... I desperately want another little one, and luckily the hubs is starting to get baby fever again!!!

Preston's birthday is a week away and i'm going to attempt cake balls.... we will see how well they turn out, I'm a little nervous bc i've never really done anything like this but i'm willing to try.

The battle with the milk/dairy intolerance is like a driving force in my life, i'm days away from starting a food journal for my little man bc he's still occasionally having bowel issues and there shouldn't be any other factors that should bring that on.  And that also means careful purchasing for his cake, and i'm making his frosting so i can ensure that there are NO milk products in it... I would hate for his birthday celebration to cause him to have diarrhea for the follow few days.  Last night between the hubs and I we make preston a "milkshake/custard" with his Almond Breeze and a frozen banana ( and some cinnamon to add a little more flavor) and he loved it.... better yet sister loved it too!!!!! That is definitely a step in the right direction!!  Daily I am reading the boxes and cans of food to see that they contain MILK!!!!! OMG I don't seem to be able to  get away from it!!!!  lots of stuff to do today, should get back to it... I will try updating more, i've been slacking lately!! 

Feeling defeated and taken advantage of.

So as of may 31 I was unemployed, no longer working for the school that was changing my life, and my children's at that!  I finally, after weeks of searching, found a part time job, but after the cost of day care, and gas going to and from work, I was realistically only bringing home 50/week. So I quit, and decided to stay home and watch kids like I use to and finally found a family!!! We talked for the two weeks leading up to their start, and it seemed perfect, the money would be great, and help with our finances, I was so excited.  The came their start day, early and I so understand it, their oldest had his very first day of school!  (I'll be a wreck that day!!!) and the girls got sick and didn't come back the next day, and now they are not coming back for a while because the dad is out of work, things I wish I had known ahead of time. I feel like they only needed a sitter for occasional days and not full time, and that should've be discussed prior to them coming the first day.  Back we go into our financial hole, and back I go looking into places hiring part time, or over night or maybe another childcare job..... I just feel like it never stops raining on me.  Gonna hold my head high, pray, and remember that he has a plan for my family and we will know one day.

The struggles in my life, have all led me to where I am, I had a very personal struggle Monday when kids started school, 7 years ago in August I made a decision I cannot take back and I cannot change, and it still hurts... I have been blessed with an amazing husband, he comes home every night, he is faithful and devoted to his family, he is my rock when I need to fall apart, he has been there for me in good times and bad... I love him more than words can say!  And I've been blessed with the unconditional love of two children who amaze me on a daily basis, every day is a new day, and I am determined to continue to find the good in each instead of dwelling on the bad, and on the past!

Insomnia, really? Again!!

So laying here in bed looking at the clock, it's 11:45.... My alarm goes off at 5!!!! Tomorrow is gonna be awful, except for the part that it's teacher appreciation week, not that my infant parents really think about me as a teacher but that's ok. As always Tuesdays are easier days. Wow no update since march ok: being in McKinney is still going well, kinda sad that at the end of the school year I'll be losing a teacher friend I've come to love and adore and do does my lil man. I have moved up my sweet Ady-girl and I was so sad about it!! I know she is ready and it's best for her but it sucks when you get so attached that it's hard to let them go. I survived the 6year mark though it doesn't get any easier I know she's not in pain anymore I still miss her sweet smiley face daily. (I miss you monkey-butt) April came and went like a whirlwind! Nana and Poppi have a new house and hopefully will be moved in soon!! They are now living in the same city as most of us so that makes me feel better about them. We are coming up on Matt's birthday and mothers day, not that it's really celebrated that much in my house.. It's more about the grandmas and this year, it's Matt's birthday. Well off to finish laundry.

Happy third birthday my princess!! (oh yea and we got a house!)

OMG a lot to update on!!  First we got into a house two weeks ago, and it is amazing, its big and beautiful and its all that we wanted and more, i cannot believe we found what we were looking for an in our price range, we were beginning to think that it couldn't happen!!!  so its been a hectic two weeks, last week was spring break and wow, i miss being that mommy, being there with my kids, holding them teaching them everything, but alas this is not my life anymore, i do love my income and how its helped our family but if i could go back and get to spend more time with my little man i would!!  in my opinion he's already behind where peyton was, he's not talking near as much as he would be if we were home together working on vocabulary everyday.

and now to my favorite part: MS P. TURNED 3!!

Wow st paddy's day actually fell on a saturday so she had her birthday party on her actual birthday and it was such a wonderful party!!  Peyton pulled me aside and told me that all her friends loved her so much bc they got her lots of stuff!!!  she's so grown up, she's getting so big and so mature i cannot believe it!!  We celebrated the day with lots of family and friends, and then spent the evening with friends doing a st paddy's day celebration the way adults do, in the back yard drinking and hanging out and grilling watching the kids play and enjoy themselves!!  i love my life, and we officially have the party house, we will be doing family birthday's here for the Lites family and possibly even some of the Sorge, Plaza gang also and i'm super pumped!!!


so my babies are 3 and 18 months and i don't know where the time has gone!

and then i'm thrown back into my chair and in my face is it..... the day......  tuesday is the 20th and it marks 6 years.

What an update!!

Since May we have had a whirlwind of life happen!!  The end of bf-ing went rather well luckily he was only on formula for 3 months!  In June we had to make a decision i had hoped we would never have to make and had actually dreaded, I went back to work, and we introduced the kiddos to day care...:-(.  We had decided to go back to where i use to work, before my kids were born, heck before i had even met Matthew!!! This was a very short lived decision, there was no organization, all sorts of things that made me scared to leave my kids there (part of that is the over protective mother in me, i had been their only caretaker and i wouldn't settle for anything less than what I could do for them......)  once i realized that this was not going to work, and i knew that there must be something better..... (wait my ADD, OCD brain needs to rewind... we debated school, and my final words were fine, they can go to daycare, but it will be the education i want for them Montessori... AND. THAT. WAS. FINAL.)  So the search was on, for a school with everything i needed and wanted, and i happened upon one that had even more...... FREE CHILDCARE?!?!?! either this place is a sham or they really love their employees and care about keeping them and keeping them happy.... I applied and was called within seconds of sending my application via their website!!  I interviewed and it was amazing!!  We had prepared Peyton for the transition because she needed the advanced warning and with that we started in Frisco!!  I could care less for some people but that is the case everywhere and with everything in life!  I doubled my take home pay and my kids went to school for free, what more could i ask for!!!

Well while we transitioned between jobs and me adjusting to working we moved into my parents house to save money, not an easy decision for either of us to make, but one that needed to be made.  We have adjusted to this life but are still not comfortable, i feel as if my life isn't completely mine, there is always someone looking over my shoulder with a comment (said or kept to themselves doesn't matter still comments) on how i should do something, how i should raise my kids, why i should or shouldn't do something.... and i knew this would be the case, mainly bc its family, and when someone loves you so much it makes them ache they feel the need to say or think these things.... i get that but this is not easy for us and difficult on our kids :-(.

Christmas is hectic, and crazy and overwhelming..... WAIT I THINK I TRIED TO FORGET TO TELL YOU ABOUT PRESTON'S BIRTHDAY..... NOW THAT WAS AN EVENT!!!!  We did without a real theme.... he had a cake with a football on it for him and a longhorn piped onto it!!  We did the family birthday party at my in-laws and we were so blessed that despite the fact they sold their house and had to be out two weeks later they hosted his party!!!  It was crazy and fun at the same time!!  this boy loves his clothes, he hugged every item he got!!  We were so happy and so thankful for the outpouring of love our family got on his first birthday... and then came the friends party, that was a blast, hosted by the babies God father, and we couldn't have been happier!!  We have such an amazing group of friends that made little man's first birthday a time we will all remember!!

ok back to christmas, crazy and hectic and suppose to be smaller than last year.... then why did the amount of stuff we took home double from last year!!!????  my kids had a blast got more than we could imagine and all the things they wanted and needed and even more!!  All sorts of things to furnish a play room in our new house.... ah a new house, have a I mentioned we are started to get the move out itch and thinking well maybe before the summer.... ahhh that would be amazing, to have something that i can actually call mine!!!!

hmm, so before christmas my boss (the head of schools, currently they have 4, working to open their 5th soon) tells me of a position that has just opened up.... it will mean i double my drive to work, but the hours will be fewer (same hours per paycheck, but no lunch break *woohoo*) and i will be a lead, did i mention its with INFANTS!!!!  i talk to Matthew, bc no decision is made in our household without communication and agreements being made before hand.... 2 weeks before Christmas i make the transition to McKinney!!!! i love it I desperately miss some of my old kids.... ah, i didn't think i would miss them this much but luckily i still have some contact right?!?

January is crazy and we call our Realtor and start actively looking for a house!!  Fast forward to now, beginning of February, we found a house last night just waiting to see if we get approved and if not going to dust off our ego's and keep looking... i'm so excited and stressed at the same time, I can't believe we are about to embark on this journey(again)... We are going to put the kids in the same room, and (if it works out) buy them bunk beds, the kids that can be taken apart and made into two separate beds later in life so we won't have to buy new furniture in just a few years....

so thats almost a year of updates, its been a crazy one but as usual i wouldn't trade it for the world!!  still adjusting to being back in the workforce even though that too has been 8 months of attempting to adjust!!